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Crossroads of life

30/12/2013

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Ten years ago (!) I sat in one of the crossroads of my life. I was seventeen and had just finished high school and taken my entrance exams for University. I knew then, as I know now, that choosing a career is not something fair to ask of a teenager.

Our schools taught us one thing: what would be on the entrance exams. “Pay attention now, this is probably going to be on the exam”. And so we went throughout high school: learning how to pass the feared vestibular, solving hundreds of questions a week, taking extra classes and practice exams.

People broke up relationships and gave up their social lives in order to study because “while you’re having fun your opponent is studying” or “that is the difference between those who pass and those who don’t”.  

For a while my biggest fear was not passing the damn thing. Not that I was a bad student, mind you. I was a perfectly trained exam-acing machine. I didn’t mind studying and I liked writing essays, so I was ok. But I regretted what I was forced to learn – I hated math and chemistry with a passion. I didn’t see the use of memorizing so much information only to regurgitate it back during exams. It didn’t make my life any better, it didn’t make me a more skillful and resourceful person. To be honest, after exams I used to forget most of what I had just done. Nowadays I can barely recall what I studied then.  

I wanted to learn how to be a decent adult, how to manage living on my own, first aid, self-defense, cooking, fixing stuff around the house and more creative things.

I have so much going on in my mind now that I started writing about the education system in Brazil that I think I will just drop it and go back to where I started.

When I was seventeen I didn’t have the faintest idea of what I wanted to do with my life. God, I still don’t. I went through our University brochure picking out what I definitely didn’t want to do – medicine, law, IT, etc. I eventually settled for English and my teachers thought it was a waste of good grades.

I passed on the first place.

I couldn’t have done much being educated in a town where traditional careers like law and medicine are still regarded as the best one can follow. I wasn’t taught to be creative and daring. I was taught to get into University, get a job and settle.

And that is what I did. In part, anyway. In four years I graduated as a teacher and had already been working for two years. I was restless. I didn’t want to do that. Don’t get me wrong, I enjoyed teaching and I was quite good at it, but I couldn’t allow myself to get comfortable.

I knew there was more to life, so I set out to explore it.

Ten years after that first crossroads in my life I have the same familiar feeling of uncertainty and curiosity. I am still not sure about my career choice and that can be frustrating at times but I get to learn new things and choose new paths.  

We all do. Always. 

7 Comments
Joy Andreasen link
30/12/2013 02:10:13 pm

Hi Ana.. I have ALWAYS said that deciding on a career as a teenager is a huge waste of time. All the money parents spend on college and most of the time the kids end up back home with no life skills and no job. At the ripe ole age of fifty, I can say that life happens to us while we are busy making other plans. I guess my piece of advice is... do what you have to do to put food on your table and pay rent, and also then follow your bliss. Eventually maybe your bliss will pay your bills. And sometimes it won't. We who are spiritual sometimes forget that we live in two worlds. We live in the earth plane, where we have to eat and pay bills, and we live in the spiritual plane, where our souls soar and we make a difference in the world. Sometimes we can make our bliss pay our bills, and we all aspire to this. However, sometimes we make the biggest contribution to the world while we are working a regular job and dreaming of something else. Most of my most amazing revelations about life and the bigger picture have come to me while I was sorting mail at the Post Office. Even Jesus was a carpenter when he wasn't healing the sick and raising the dead.

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Karthik
30/12/2013 02:10:28 pm

I totally hear what u r saying.

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Ana Elisa Miranda
31/12/2013 02:35:12 am

Joy and Karthik, thanks for your comments!

Joy, I really needed to read this today. I have been struggling with finding a job (any job that will pay the bills) vs creating my own income by doing what I love (and gradually discovering what I love doing). Now I just want to accept that I can do both for a while - do what I gotta do to survive in this world but never forget to give my soul space and time to create.

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Mrs. Isinvar link
31/12/2013 08:20:51 am

I am kind of sitting exactly where you are. Trying to figure out what my next step here in Belgium really is. Good luck :)

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Ana Elisa
1/1/2014 08:29:00 am

Good luck to us! Lots of patience and persistance.

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Jen
8/1/2014 07:03:15 am

I'm so happy to have found your blog! Great to know someone else here in Belgium is going through same feelings as I am. :)

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Ana Elisa
8/1/2014 08:28:22 am

Hi Jen and thanks for your comment!
Good luck and success to you, be patient :)
Please come back to read more posts about living in Belgium.

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